animated mind

My Act of Love,well I’m different comper to other persons I don’t show my true feelings to my love ones or some one very close to me.Coz I feel so corny when I show it.I just showing it over my Kindness and making fun of them.Some Timez my love one says "your so numb!"to me.Well maybe she can see but I’m just showing it by my concern for her every day. But I have many ways to show my love by sitting together and talk, take a walk around the block, sing together and teaching her how to play a guitar.And some timez I show my love by writing a song for her "take my only heart!!!" wuu….

well. I’m Loging off.

Well, I am who I am. Being myself can’t be compared with others. Being me “John Ervin” is all I whant to be. Who whants to have a good life, friends and a happy family.But I’m not happy enough with the person I am. But I lately I lack self-confidence. Honestly, I want to be myself and be proud and happy all the time. But I do something remotely dumb or silly and embarassing and I’m thinking, “what must these people be thinking about me?” I’m thinking that every person who just watched me do that silly thing is going to walk away and talk behind my back about what a freak I am. Hmm… Well, AnyWayz I’m Happy… I’m just thinking who can judge me.

Anyway. I think my problem is not that I’m not happy with who I am. I’m even kind of proud of what I think or choose to do… My problem is that people around me affect me way too much either because I compare myself to them, or maybe because I still care what they think about me… Tsk3!!!!